Simple Woman's Daybook

I am thinking... I really hope I get sleep tonight because I haven't the past 3 nights and I have had bad pain from my condition.

I am thankful for... A loving husband, 4 beautiful daughters, and my caring church family!

From the kitchen... I think I am going to make spaghetti tonight, it just sounds yummy. Maybe I will make chili one day this week that sounds good too!

I am wearing... my Disney Store VoluntEARS shirt and brown pajama bottoms

I am creating... a list of what I need to do for a friend's bachelorette party(I'm the matron of honor) and making a list of what we need for our Walt Disney World trip that is in 34 days!

I am going...hmm, this week I have to get some more blood work done, get my bridesmaid dress altered and I am not sure what else

I am reading... Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World by Joanna Weaver and the bible

I am hoping... This week goes better for me pain wise and I will not need to rely so much on Chris taking care of the kids, house, and I.

I am hearing... lots and lots of wind outside

Around the house... I am the only one up everyone else is soundly asleep! It seems so different than what our regular house looks like when everyone is awake!

One of my favorite things... My 5 year old telling me that she likes to pray to god a lot for the good and bad things in life and she is always going to do it in school.

A few plans for the rest of the week: blood work, party at Emma's school(I think, need to check on the date).

Here is picture for thought I am sharing...

I love this picture! My husband, Chris took it on one of our trips to Walt Disney World and I just think it is beautiful! I am getting so excited about our upcoming trip and this one puts a smile on my face!

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Our Week

Sorry for my lack of posting. This has been a hard week and I haven't felt up to blogging to be honest. Sunday night I was having a lot of my tingly burning pain that my illness causes and couldn't sleep, around 5 in the morning I was walking towards my room and all of a sudden felt dizzy and ended up blacking out and falling. On my way down I hit my head on the wall then it seems that since then I have been in a lot of pain. I am not sure what is going on because I have been feeling a lot better and things were starting to get back to normal but this week the burning pain and other pain I feel with my illness came back full force. Chris has been wonderful and has taken great care of me, I am so blessed! The sweetest thing about my week is yesterday when Emma got home she came to me and said "mommy during snack walk I quietly said a prayer for you to feel better". It just made my day that not only does she want me to feel better but she knew to ask God to help me.

I do have to brag about Emma. She has been learning and picking up verses for Sparks really well and she seems to be asking a lot of questions about Jesus and I feel that she is really trying to learn all about him. She has had some good deep questions and it makes me wonder if she will accept Christ sometime in her youth. Also, Emma finished her second six weeks of kindergarten and we got her report card yesterday. They don't do grades like A, B etc... but do still developing or developed in areas that they are studying. Emma got developed in all areas on her report card and her teachers remarks were that she is a wonderful little girl and a big helper! I am so proud of her and still can't believe she is in kindergarten.

Another thing that has gone on this week is we found out the fate of Kaetlyn and her being accepted to the preschool program for children with disabilities. Kaetlyn's vision teacher called Chris yesterday and said that she had talked with the program director and said that Kaetlyn will be accepted into the program and that a teacher has also been picked out for her. She will go to the same school as Madison and get to ride the same bus! When Chris called to tell me he was in tears and I have to say this is an answered prayer. With the way the school district has been running we weren't certain she would be accepted. She will start in January after the kids get back from the Holiday break! Kaetlyn also has an evaluation with a speech therapist tomorrow and I am very nervous about that.

Well, I guess that is all I have to ramble about right now. Hopefully I will get some more exciting posts again soon!

Go SuperStars Go!

Tonight Madison had her first ever cheerleading competition! I have mentioned on my blog before that she participates on a special needs team called the GymCat SuperStars! She has been practicing since August and tonight she and her team got to perform at the Dallas Cowboy Stadium! I can't tell you how proud I was watching her, I cried so hard watching my beautiful cheerleader on the field! Madison seemed to really enjoy it and can't wait for her next competition next month! Madison was also excited that she got her first trophy tonight as well and got to meet and take pictures with The Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders! I am so proud of her!

Madison on the big screen-She has a huge smile!

Callie, Madison's helper, holding Madison after getting her trophy!

Coming back from the field! She is soo happy!
Anytime she sees her trophy she has a huge smile on her face! She just loves it and has decided to put it on her nightstand so it is right by her while she sleeps!

MORE PICS CAN BE SEEN ON MY SMUGMUG SITE! I WILL BE ADDING MORE ONCE I GET THE PICTURES MY DAD AND CHRIS TOOK, SO KEEP CHECKING BACK!

Digi Pages

The other night I couldn't sleep so I did some digi scrap. What do you think?

Thankful Thursday!

Please join Sonya at Truth 4 the Journey for Thankful Thursday! All you have to do is post 5 things that you are thankful for this week!

1. I am thankful that Chris's conference that he had to participate in for work went well!

2. I am thankful for being apart of Awanas. The kids I teach are so wonderful and bring me so much joy. I love hearing them say their verses each week!

3. I am thankful for my friends. I may not have many but the ones I do have are wonderful and like sisters to me. I am thankful to have these wonderful women in my life. God has blessed me with great friends.

4. I am thankful for the Women's ministry at our church. The fellow women at church are all amazing and all of the women's ministry events are inspiring and draw me closer to God!

5. I am thankful for how blessed I am. God has truly blessed me with a wonderful husband, amazing kids, great friends, a loving extended family, a loving home, and food to eat. We may not be rich by the Worlds standard but I feel rich!

Those are my 5 things this week! I would love to see what things you are thankful for. Please post 5 things on your blog and then link up on Truth 4 the Journey, come on you know you want to!

Just a Rant

I have so many different things going on that are causing all sorts of emotions and I truly want to share those emotions with someone or the entire world I guess. I am not sure if sharing them on my blog is the appropriate place to share them but I feel like I need to get some of these things I have been feeling recently out. If I do decided to share I wont give specifics in regards to anything unless it has been approved.

One thing that has really brought me down in the past several months is changing friendships. I know friendships change over time but I guess it kind of hit me hard and I wasn't ready for the change. I miss the way things were and I miss feeling like I am a special friend to others. I still think of these people as important people and like sisters to me. I don't think it has anything to do with our friendship I think just things with our children have made things change. I just love them and I miss them very much.

Then I have other friendships that have pretty much ended for various reasons but I miss them and I long for them. In all honestly with these friendship I was used and at times I still get calls when they need help from me and then they are done with me. I need to learn to stop being walked on because I let it happen too often.

I feel that sometimes I get beat up(not physically) for being a conservative Christian. I know I have strong opinions but I feel I have the right to them. I do love to hear what others have to say and why they believe what they believe. There have even been times where their side has made me stop and think. Though there are others who wont even take the time to calmly talk to me about their opinions and instead just bash my thoughts.

I have also been hurt in the past months of people not being supportive of my illness. There were times where I could have used people to step up and just let me know they were there for me and I felt like I didn't get that. My illness has been the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with in my life and I just wanted the support of the ones I cared about.

Speaking of my illness, it has taken me away of most of my responsibilities of being a housewife, I am getting back into that now though. Not being able to be the caretaker of the kids and the submissive wife to my amazing husband has been really hard. It was hard for me to let go and I can't tell you how much I miss taking care of the family and the family home. I feel it is where God wants me. We are slowly starting to get back into our regular roles and I am liking that, it just will take time. I never thought I would missing mopping and doing things like laundry. It is weird.

I hate that I have gained about 20 pounds in the past few months. We are sure it is due to medications but still doesn't make me feel good about myself. This has hit me hard and I wish I knew what to do but nothing seems to be working. I don't see how my amazing husband can find me attractive anymore. I know this is more of a me thing and how I perceive my self.

I do want to say how blessed I am to have had a lot of support with my illness and new friendships sprout. I have become closer to God and have gotten more involved in Church and volunteering activities. I love it. Seriously God is my rock and my fortress and without him I would be lost, down, and out.

Ok I guess this is my middle of the night rant for now. I just wanted to get this stuff out in the open. If anything has been getting to you lately or you just need to vent about something please share. You can do it through comments or my private email which you can get off my profile page. One thing I love about this blog and the women that frequently post is how open and honest we are all and how supportive. Thanks for letting me rant

Bad Mommy Day

Today was a bad mommy day for me. For most of the day things went well and the girls behaved but by the end of the day things just were out of control. Madison was supposed to go to cheerleading practice and since Chris had to work during it we had asked his dad to watch the other girls so I could take her but things came up and he was unable to watch them. I ended up not being able to take her to practice because you have to go upstairs and I can't physically carry a stroller upstairs due to my illness, and Alyson has to be in a stroller there. So I was frustrated with that, then Madison got upset she was missing it, then upset that no one would play outside with her so she screamed for 30 minutes straight, then Alyson pulled a cherry limeade off the kitchen table causing red stuff to go all over the kitchen floor. The icing on the cake was Kate, she just kept disobeying and yelling and I couldn't deal with it by the end of the day. It probably didn't help that my extra wisdom tooth was hurting today which then caused a headache. I just feel like a bad mommy and am now regretting not being in a better mood or just letting it all slide off my back. Usually I can handle the sensory processing tantrums that Kate and Madison have but the last half of the day I just couldn't. I feel like such a bad mommy today. I pray and ask God for his forgiveness for not having patience.